I think I'm depressed.....

....I ran out of anti-depressants two weeks ago and really can't afford to go get some. I'm not sleeping more than 3-4 hours a night and can't seem to concentrate on anything..not even painting..which usually relaxes me. Worried about Mike traveling home from Portland tonight in the storm...sounds like another ice storm....will be glad when he gets here. He's babysitting a ship...and apparently there is one guy on board who has sworn that he will get off and go home no matter what! They are like prisoners aboard ship for up to ten months...I think I'd just jump overboard, myself!! Poor guy! Mike may have to accompany him to the hospital as he swears he's really ill and needs to go home. Immigration will be with him too, thank God!! I will be glad when Mike goes on construction and gets away from these really dangerous positions!! It's very cloudy and oppressive today...that doesn't help me any. I should have stayed in bed.